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Is it mine? The pain that holds me in its grasp?

I have been unconscious, and I could not have been any less aware of that.

I’ve been trying to parent with the pain I unfortunately Inherited from mom, dad, and generations past.

So naturally I went ahead and caused heartache, unknowingly.

In the same way my parents did onto me.

Only now its my words of discomfort her body will keep.

I was unaware of this pain-body inside of me.

I didn’t choose to be used as a womb for misuse.

I just wasn’t taught to take care of the old emotions that kept my ego bruised.

So they turned into little goblins of irritability.

Still, for a long time I was unaware of what caused this reactive side of me.

I never felt like it was part of me.

But every now and then it tried make me believe, I was a victim who was weak.

Somehow I trusted the lies it fed me.

Until recently.

I heard a wise man describe this dilemma as an entity.

made of pain within the body that was never released.

He stated the suffering could not survive In the light of awareness.

becoming awake within a conscious state of mind, is how to prepare for this.

We are the light.

We are the consciousness of the universe, manifested as humans.

Gifted with life.

When we are unconscious, and disconnected from self, we allow opportunities for the pain-body to act on behalf of ones self.

No negotiations can be had, until the goblin has taken whatever hope you have.

But if we remain in an awareness state, the energy trapped within the pain-body will be transformed, and there we find faith.

Pain-body is a necessary part of awakening.

Great things don’t come easily, or painlessly.

A sword is forged in fire, for strengthening.

Obstacles are passageways to awakening.

So buckle up, we’ve got a goblin to Retrieve.

Not to defeat, because like the light the dark we also need.

The first step is being aware this entity is there.

Next, is acknowledging it isn’t going anywhere.

Now, to work through the pain you have maintained and preserved on shelves, so well.

This will lessen the pull of the goblins disdain and need to wreak havoc upon your life, making it hell.

Because it cant work in an environment magnified by light.

We are light.

Still every now and then we allow its darkness to suffocate our flame, and replace pockets of love with hate and ache.

All in the name of this pain-body’s sake.

But every thought is energy, and I’m not short of those today.

So just pay attention to where you share your light, as darkness lingers and craves it to take.

We must connect with the awareness state.

Take a second to look up to the sky, focus on nothing.

Within that stillness you will find, the same place where peace has been, and light resides.

Heaven, is within the light.

We are light. Heaven is inside.