You showed me

Is this funny to you?

Dangle a carrot in front of me, when I am without food?

Rain down on me when I am already cold, wet, and shivering?

Make good men appear, just to take them away from me.

Maybe I should just submit.

Wonder if you’d find anyone else to tease me with.

I’ve been good.

At least I’ve tried.

But you still leave me with all my whys.

I’ve begged and pleaded with you, day and night.

I’ve prayed until the circulation in my hands turned white.

Why is it so hard for me to find, someone worth a damn, someone to call mine.

Do I go through this life wishing and hoping to be his wife.

Only to come back as an ant, to be squished by a man.

Is that your plan?

Tease me until I cant take it no more.

Until I scream wtf is wrong with me?

And you reply, nothing.

Silence is defeating when it come to conversations about my love life, between you and me.

You are a comedian, I’m just a set, you are rehearsing.

You watch me, and you don’t even regret the tone you set, when you deny me of love.

Some days I fear I may never get.

You force me to look inside of me, for the comfort I seek.

I get mad.

but now I see, what you have been doing for me.

Protecting or least guarding my heart from being, an unnecessary target.

You were just looking out for me.

Unlike most of our conversations, this one really hurt to speak.

I just know I deserve love, and that’s because you showed me.

Sierra Mazzucca