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Love the idea

Sometimes, not all the time, I wish I could’ve loved you and that it would have been enough for me to stay around to lift you up. I know everyone deserves that support, it just couldn’t be that way for us. Probably because all I ever seen when I looked at you was a past I didn’t want back. You broke pieces of me, and brought out a version of me that you could easily control and defeat. So I pushed that identity off a ledge somewhere in the past, where I fought to leave you be, and erase the old path. Preventing her existence from ever traveling back to me. I always told you I’d be honest, even if it hurt. Though I am not a sadist, so I’ll try to not make this sting or burn. When it comes to giving love that part of your body just doesn’t seem to work. Too many pieces are missing or they have been cauterized and burned. It’s clear you are broken, and very deeply hurt. I kept trying to fill an empty skin sacks insatiable appetite of, ME ME ME. Forgetting who comes first, me. The irony is you pushed me so far in, I learned why I choose people who can never love or commit. because the same pieces they were looking for, I too was missing. So yeah, sometimes not all the time, I wish I could’ve loved you. But there were too many broken pieces and not enough wholes. I hope you find all the pieces you lost. i hope you find everything to make yourself whole.

Sierra Mazzucca

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    Christopher Hall

    Some flowers just want to stay broken and dehydrated, spitting out all of the water that comes their way. But the only way they will grow is if they drink it in, accept their inner existence inside, and let go. This is why some flowers grow, while others don’t. As the ones that grow lift themselves up, they naturally want to help lift others up too in that process. But some people, just aren’t ready. And maybe never will be. I’ll admit, right before I encountered your words, I was still feeling broken and dehydrated. I was too stubborn to drink the water, and let it all go. Always have been in certain ways. I believed I would grow again eventually though. But I guess the hope in your words was some kind of spark or permission to finally let go. It feels good to go back to the hopeful parts of myself again. This is how I used to be before that part of me died somewhere. But, it doesn’t matter now. I’m not looking back anymore. I guess I’m alive again now. 🌻

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    1. Sierra Mazzucca Avatar
      Sierra Mazzucca

      I hope you had an amazing day and did everything you needed to do :)

      It makes me so happy to read your words. Thank you. I will probably comment further tomorrow. I will be the recording audio, but I am falling asleep lol

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        Christopher Hall

        I sure would love it indeed if you commented further! But only if that is what you desire in the moment! And that’s because I selfishly love chatting with you! So no expectations! But it would sure be fun if you did! 😀 Oh! My day was a tad challenging, but you know what? It ended on a good note! 🙏🏻

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