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Moral Hearse

They say you get what you deserve.

But what if you don’t know your own worth?

I seem to seek out men who only put themselves first.

I allow my temple to become, yet another emotional hearse.

I do this all while trying to persuade myself none of it hurts.

I smile and laugh at all your poise jokes.

While I push into your blade, that slowly cuts into my throat.

I am aware this will happen every time.

Where I allow another man to wrap me away into his web of lies.

So why do I keep making the same choice?

Why can’t I fix this broken mind, if I am conscious of this decision of mine?

I assume it’s because I still haven’t mended certain parts inside.

I understand that may be a good percentage.

So why do I keep allowing emotionless men to render my heart defenseless?

As I walk into the liars den aware, of the damage and dangers within.

The worst part is they are usually waiting with very alluring large grins.

As if they anticipated my arrival.

Such a walking prediction hope is.

The torture is the depletion of my morals, and soul.

While they add to their bank of ego.

They offer poison with no anecdote.

They aren’t there to be with you, no.

They have a well to fill.

It’s such a deep need, even they don’t see.

Why they collect with no purpose, just gluttony.

So I must be a target.

As I’ve been actively working on me and the values I bring.

That scares a selfish man.

When a woman is aware of her worth and her needs.

As she will no longer submit to an empty man, and his well of greed.

They say you get what you deserve.

So I hope you are aware of your own worth.

Sierra Mazzucca

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  1. Christopher Hall Avatar
    Christopher Hall

    40/10. Maybe that’s a biased assessment. But to me, it’s really that good. So I don’t even really give a shit even if my bias is in view. You are every bit worthy of being shown respect. Even regardless if you still somehow didn’t feel like you had any worth or self respect as you do now, then you still would be worthy of it. From the beginning of time, across each culture, our ancestors systemized philosophies and myths that perpetuate cycles of abuse, which ironically leads right back to the abuser as a form of self abuse. Self destruction is easier. Love is difficult. Well, love is both simple and difficult at the same time. Oh that conversation involves so much more nuance instead of my ridiculous blanket statements.

    I rarely like to use the word “stupid,” but this context calls for it. If any man (Or even outside of romantic contexts) even thinks about treating you like garbage, then they are simply being stupid in that moment. And all they are doing is hurting themselves. All it takes is wanting to search for your heart instead of being hypnotized by your physical beauty, and treating it like an object to “acquire” for five seconds. They should take a step back and have some gratitude! That’s a word there! Gratitude! Just have some fucking gratitude is what I would tell them. But it still doesn’t matter what they think anyway. Your beauty alone is the testament. Your heart alone shows as the witness. So, they don’t like fine. That’s on them. You will always be beautiful anyhow regardless of whether anyone likes it or not.

    So this is freaking good! It’s damn good! All I can hope from this, is that I really fucking hope that this encourages you. Truly I do! ❤️

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      Sierra Mazzucca

      Thank you thank you thank you. You always have the best response and feedback to say and always what I need to hear. I am giving you a huge hug. You are so good at making others see their own beauty through your eyes in a special light. Thank you.

      Though I wont be a victim because Sadly I am a full grown adult making a whole choice, knowing it could potentially be detrimental to my well being. So I am the ” stupid one” as well. I wont be anymore though.
      Also, you are an amazing motivational writer/speaker. The world needs more gentle souls like yours. Thank you for always making me smile.

      I truly hope your day is kind to you 💛

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      1. Christopher Hall Avatar
        Christopher Hall

        Oh hell yeah! I love me some hugs! I say those things because they are true. Some people like to believe that it isn’t, but I have enough evidence needed for my conclusion. So that’s why I say it even louder when appropriate.

        Don’t get me wrong, I most certainly agree and applaud your decision to absolutely not be a victim. That’s the position that I take for myself as well. Because I’ve made decisions in that realm before that were awful, and harmful, and that I take full accountability and responsibility for. But in my personal opinion, (you have every right to disregard what I say as full of shit if you want, I take no offense with that) none of us are truly stupid for simply trying to fulfill a genuine need for a deeper connection and intimacy. Even if it’s not the healthiest or wisest decision to get there. And I’m not saying or excusing ourselves for doing so, but making those bad decisions come from the best place of intention. Does that mean we should make those unwise decisions? Of course not. But ultimately, we as men have created a system that puts most women first and foremost, and most men in powerless positions, to seek out that genuine need in unhealthy and unstable ways. Which is why I like poking holes in such a system like that. Because, it’s time for all of that nonsense to stop. 😉

        My oh my! What absolutely wonderful compliments! I’m so grateful for your kind words. If that is what you’re seeing, then it’s most certainly because of beautiful people like you that inspire me in such a manner. And that’s why I say, you’re very welcome. I think what makes me happy the most out of everything is hearing that I make you smile. Not just because it looks and feels good on the outside to see that. But most importantly, because it makes you smile in your heart. That’s what’s truly beautiful out of all! 😁☺️

        My day thankfully has been kind to me so far. Thank you for always caring! Though, I have been feeling very ungrateful about life lately. And that makes me so frustrated inside, with the root of sadness hanging in there from it. So I’ve got some more internal and external change I have to continue to work on. If I can always make your day better even for five seconds, or however long, then I feel content. So I sure hope your day is going great too! ❤️

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