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When disconnected in a deep meditative state.

I feel my soul lighten and align with peace.

From the chaos of trying to appease an insatiable ego who calls itself, Me.

For a few moments, I feel free from a grip that has been depleting good energy, draining me.

I looked to many different sources over the years, searching for this needed relief.

I may have received a moment maybe 2, or 3 of respite from my object thinking.

One thought after another, no space between.Though, thoughts will never retreat.

I can in a matter of speaking slow them down, by creating space in between.

Space-thinking.

This concept is new, and still unfamiliar to me.

I’ve only ever had a noisy thought after thought, on repeat.Large loads back to back, no separating.

Never finding awareness, or a state of awakening.

Ego oversees the table of fantasy.

Place cards with names assigned to attendees.

I never send out the invitations.

The invited, were not requested by me.

Ego never invites consciousness, to share plates prepared by clarity.

It only requests restlessness, senseless, and irritability to eat.I unknowingly used to go back for seconds, times 3.

Now I am practicing pausing before letting just anything filter and exit through me.

Because I know, I am a vessel for an ego with an Insatiable need.

Who seeks to remove my ability to find truth between, reality and the lies it feeds me.

In the past I let this ego fill and sustain me.

Followed by a gullible dessert, that kept trying to play with me.

A craving brought on by old thinking.Pause, process before ingesting anything.

It’s not worth the toll on your soul.

Or the spirit depleting calories you’ll keep.

Holding onto fast thought thinking will only serve one purpose, keep you empty and in a state of unease.Eventually turning into disease.

Killing off the entire being.That you unknowingly kept feeding.

Spiritually suffocating.

I learned the practice of space thinking.

Which is being aware of the stillness in between.

It is creating present awareness, a feeling of freedom, a sense of inner peace.

This is what your soul needs to re-charge, from the chaos of object thinking.

Feels like ego deconstructing to be reconstructed.

Simple practice of looking at the sky for a few minutes day/night, is a quick release of disconnecting from the ego of me, myself and I.