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A collection of poems

I’ve been feeling like a stranger in my skin.

The last thing I remember is an argument with that jerk, inner critic.

We both went to bed with many words left unsaid.

The next day to my regret, it woke up earlier than me.

I guess peace couldn’t stand its company.

Started off with an earful of negativity.

Of course, it was about who I could never be.

Because I have only one worth, for you to destroy me.

And why this rant so early?

Oh, yeah all because I wanted to sleep in past 417.

You called me lazy.

Said the greats never sleep.

Critic, you couldn’t pick a more convenient time to be a dick to me?

Yeah, this sounds about right.

All You ever do is wake me up, or keep me up at night.

Just to tear down the parts of me, that are starting to feel alright.

Nothing positive, nope not from you or I.

Only ruminating thoughts of yours, that I do not claim as mine.

Always only about how much I suck.

Yet you never can give me a real reason why.

Also, please come up with better lines.

I’m tired of taking your words for mine.

We are literally in the same body, you and I.

You do realize if I quit, we both die?

Is that what you want?

Just tell me why.

I am the only brain, and you are only in my mind.

So why can’t your message project positivity instead of that, sermon critic preaches in your head?

They both support a stream of energy, only one is better equipped for success.

While the other keeps you reliant on trauma, your critic won’t let you forget.

So how can we evict that squatter from our mind, from our head?

We can’t, it’s forever.

But tools to live amicably together well, those shouldn’t be hard to find.

First things first, I’m Sierra and this skin sacks mine.

Reclaiming and taking control over my life!

Deleting one little lie at a time.

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3 responses to “Stranger in me”

  1. Christopher Hall Avatar

    This better not have been one of your writings that you thought wasn’t good. Because if so, then that inner critic is so fucking wrong! (Like always) Lol.

    My inner critic lately really wants me to hate being misunderstood. And part of that in this moment, is that you probably might think I’m full of shit and sound like a broken record every single time I say this is now my new favorite. But that’s the honest truth! And it’s now happened AGAIN! That is a special type of magic that I’m just blown away by! And I’m extra grateful that you keep coming back despite that fucking asshole trying to hijack your brain otherwise. So that’s something I really appreciate!

    I hate picking “favorite” lines when it’s all equally good, and interconnected as like one mind, and one voice as a whole for me. You can’t have one line without the other. But hell with it, I’ll isolate some.

    “And why this rant so early? Oh, yeah all because I wanted to sleep in past 417. You called me lazy. Said the greats never sleep. Critic, you couldn’t pick a more convenient time to be a dick to me?”

    “Also, please come up with better lines. I’m tired of taking your words for mine. We are literally in the same body, you and I. You do realize if I quit, we both die? Is that what you want? Just tell me why.”

    “First things first, I’m Sierra and this skin sacks mine. Reclaiming and taking control over my life! Deleting one little lie at a time.”

    You have a gift of being able to flow your thoughts out that feels natural, and yet comes out like a beautiful sculpture. Good shit! 10,000% out of 10! Be proud of yourself! You slayed it again! 👏🏻

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    1. Sierra Mazzucca Avatar
      Sierra Mazzucca

      Good morning!!
      I am lucky to have an amzing human supporting me like you. What treasures your comments have been for me.

      I am grateful to know you feel that way, as I sometimes look and think wow thats going everywhere, like my mind…I hope someone gets it.

      Thank you for starting my day off with some heartfelt words of support and kindness. As always I hope your day is amazing just like you!

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      1. Christopher Hall Avatar

        Now ain’t that just the sweetest response! 😊 Thank you so much! I’m giving you the biggest virtual hug right now! Lol! Thanks for always making me feel warm, welcome, and special in this crazy heart of mine lol. I’m very much grateful to always be here whenever I can! And of course indeed, I hope your morning has been great! And that your day ahead is filled with opportunities for others to get to experience the blessings that you naturally offer! It’s always an honor.

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