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You showed me

Is this funny to you?

Dangle a carrot in front of me, when I am without food?

Rain down on me when I am already cold, wet, and shivering?

Make good men appear, just to take them away from me.

Maybe I should just submit.

Wonder if you’d find anyone else to tease me with.

I’ve been good.

At least I’ve tried.

But you still leave me with all my whys.

I’ve begged and pleaded with you, day and night.

I’ve prayed until the circulation in my hands turned white.

Why is it so hard for me to find, someone worth a damn, someone to call mine.

Do I go through this life wishing and hoping to be his wife.

Only to come back as an ant, to be squished by a man.

Is that your plan?

Tease me until I cant take it no more.

Until I scream wtf is wrong with me?

And you reply, nothing.

Silence is defeating when it come to conversations about my love life, between you and me.

You are a comedian, I’m just a set, you are rehearsing.

You watch me, and you don’t even regret the tone you set, when you deny me of love.

Some days I fear I may never get.

You force me to look inside of me, for the comfort I seek.

I get mad.

but now I see, what you have been doing for me.

Protecting or least guarding my heart from being, an unnecessary target.

You were just looking out for me.

Unlike most of our conversations, this one really hurt to speak.

I just know I deserve love, and that’s because you showed me.

Sierra Mazzucca

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    Christopher Hall

    I’m so lucky to have been able to hear this read out live last night! It was absolutely powerful! And still just as powerful here! It made me tear up a little at the time, because I can relate very deeply.

    On a more vulnerable level, I will say that I myself felt relation through my own experience throughout this entire piece thinking about the times I have previously spent many nights up all night till 3-4 in the morning, praying literally on my knees begging God himself for love when I’ve felt at my loneliest. Especially because that’s something that I want, and something that feels important to me. And then just when I think something might work out, it inevitably doesn’t. Or I do something unintentionally stupid to self sabotage it like a dumbass. And it then falls to pieces right in front of my face, every…single…time. So, I’m pretty jaded about it in that aspect. Though since discovering more inner self love for once, that has now somehow kept me more afloat. So things feel different now. I still feel the same pain, but it feels balanced with a more peaceful form of self confidence and self respect inside at the same time. But me and the Higher Power are doing some wrestling atm. Cause I don’t like things being this unfair! It enrages me! Lol! Hopefully you can relate to that too in some way. I do know that you aren’t alone.

    I’ll finish by saying that I’ll be planning on checking out your other piece later as soon as I am able! (Lucky to have heard that last night too, so damn powerful!) Keep writing, keep moving! You will continue in this growth, and you will be known! I’ll be a witness until my last breath! ❤️

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    1. Sierra Mazzucca Avatar
      Sierra Mazzucca

      I am so happy you got to hear this first! This life is funny, but how glad I am to know my experiences are not unique, or special. Thank you for always being the best loudest and kindest support. I know we will find external love. We deserve it. I just need to finish fixing parts of me that still dont believe that. Anywhere, thank you 😊. Always a pleasure to share moments with you that we both can relate to. Here’s to becoming known for our poetry, for years to come.

      Have an amazing day, because you can!!

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