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Prisoner of me

I ask to be Free.

From a prisoner of me.

Free from being stuck in a mental loop of looking for spiritual peace.

All within the most chaotic parts in me.

That I work hard to keep unseen.

Usually I’d hide behind your masks, but they no longer fit me.

Beauty is quickly fading, the masks are showing flaws I kept hid.

Slowly re-growing muscles where the atrophy of despair, weakened my body.

I won’t let any of those messages back…Not inside me.

Though I can’t say anything is for certain, as I am not he.

But I refuse to wear a mask attached to shackles, when I claim to be free.

I pray daily that I awake without the pain of needing to control everything.

Including the timeframe for which I gave my spirit, to find peace for this soul that energizes me.

I measured it, like it would be that easy to achieve.

Or that these bent knee and elbow sessions would eventually find your ears to reach.

Then maybe you can deliver me from me.

Or at least from the whispers of old chatter that beat me invisibly.

Usually when I am sick because, ego is a coward and needs me weak.

So it can continue to push lies in, for me to believe.

But I told you before you can do what you want but you cant take my will from me.

I asked to be free, but now I ask to set you free.

While I am trying to heal, you keep wounding me.

Trying to keep me, desperate and weak.

But I will never back down, no more hiding behind masks you made for me.

Time to do some un-brainwashing of old beliefs and a scrubbing of my ego-system.

Before it slowly destroys me.

Sierra Mazzucca

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2 responses to “Prisoner of me”

  1. Christopher Hall Avatar
    Christopher Hall

    I’m more than happy that this is the path you are on. This feels like hope in a picnic basket, being opened up and given out freely. And you know, something that I can’t help but carry with me on this new adventure with my new identity, is when you told me I was like an Earth Angel before. So, It’s time I put that to work by saying, I believe all of these “Bent Knee and Elbow Sessions” are reaching ears. How could they not? You are special and unique. You always have been, and you always will be. There truly is only one you. As long as you continue doing what you’re doing here, by opening up all of your heart without shame, then nothing will stop you. Because that’s all anyone else could ever want or need is you. Not a mask of you. Or an imposter of you. But the real you. The you, that you are already actually are, and soon are meant to be. I already see you Sierra. But my challenging question for you to ask yourself internally on this process is, when will you finally see yourself? I don’t know when you will, but you will. It’s inevitable.

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    1. Sierra Mazzucca Avatar
      Sierra Mazzucca

      Happy Sunday! Thank you for your encouraging words 🙏🏼 and the reminder to self reflect. We are all born perfect, to me perfection means as is. We are all born as is and that is enough. This journey is amazing and welcome. As painful as it is I am getting humbled more everyday.

      I hope your Sunday met you with love and kindness. Thanks for stopping by 😊

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