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Inhale Peace and Exhale Pain

Inhale peace. Hold. Exhale pain.

Repeat.

That’s been my mantra recently.

The way my body was treating me, it was so unhappy with me.

Almost like I with my own hands was scrambling my nerve endings.

Because no one could help me.

They said it was only me who could stop the pain.

No medication would work for me.

All I wanted was for a moment to mediate the obvious debate between my mind, spirit and body.

I learned to be grateful for even the seconds of peace I received.

Because hours of physical torture, feels soul defeating.

But things I have been holding onto, I am now releasing .

Many memories of pain I kept deep.

Which is probably why it hurt so much when each one was released.

Just bad memories with no good place to go inside me.

My body had finally freed them from the

darkness my light hides.

And all at once, those wounds lit me up,

like the 4 of July.

My body was on fire, and it wanted me to ask why.

Everything I held onto, grew and mutated into the most painful aches a body should take.

And all in silence.

But I needed to feel this pain.
It humbled me, because I thought I got away.
But like they say, everything you do in the dark
Finds the light of day.

My body will eventually pay the price for all the pain I shoved away.

I now understand the value in feeling, dealing and releasing.

Especially if the issue is not mine.

Inhale peace. Hold. Exhale pain.

Repeat.

Sierra Mazzucca

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  1. Christopher Hall Avatar
    Christopher Hall

    You had my attention hooked immediately upon the first two lines. It was the vibrational tone in which you said it that made it so hauntingly beautiful. It carried all the way through to the end, when these two lines just absolutely sealed the deal for me personally.

    “I now understand the value in feeling, dealing and releasing. Especially if the issue is not mine.” 👏🏻

    I cannot stress enough how good the instrumental in the background fit perfectly with this piece too. It literally meshed right together with your emotional wavelength throughout the entire piece. There couldn’t have been a better one for this imo.

    On a human level, obviously I can’t stand the fact that you have to suffer like this. I don’t like it. And it’s not fair. I understand, pain has to be released and all. But it doesn’t mean that I have to think it’s fair. I know you will be ok. I believe that of course obviously. But I just deeply hate it for you that’s all. I’ve seen so many of my older family members struggle to live, and be in so much pain, and have sleep deprivation. And it feels so hopeless, when you know there is nothing you can truly do for them. In this same situation, I’m trying to do everything I can in the way I know how. I hope just the tiniest bit of energy in a word that I say, just gives you at least a little smile through this. Anything to activate the joy that’s already inside of you. Every time we’re on the open mic, you just light up the room with your words and your presence. And if something that I say can remind you of your inner spark that you naturally give to all of us during this time, then I’ll fucking do it. You really are the best! Don’t you dare forget it either! Or I will have to argue with you about that, and set you straight! 😂💫😄🫶🏻

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    1. Sierra Mazzucca Avatar
      Sierra Mazzucca

      Christopher, you always know what to say to bring a smile to my face! Thank you so much

      Im so grateful you are part of the open mics you are such a great addition to the group and I am so happy I get to hear you share your amazing pieces.

      Thank you for all the love and compliments.

      The music is fun and I enjoy making instrumentals, so thank you for that!!

      Pain is so inevitable and I am happy I get to create art with it❤️🙌🙏🏼

      Hope you have a beautiful nights rest 🙏🏼 You deserve all the Zzzs

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      1. Christopher Hall Avatar
        Christopher Hall

        Ok, before I hit off for my night’s rest! Now, I’ll say this! It’s an absolute pleasure! You’re just the best! And that’s just how it is! And second, I know you’re telling me I deserve all of the Zzzs. That’s true yes. But I think you need all of the Zzzs more than I need them right now. Take all of these Zzzs from me if you have to. I mean damn, whatever kind of sick psychotic pain machine is keeping you from sleeping needs to seriously fuck off. Ok, ok, enough that’s swearing for one night. You are awesome, end of story! Let’s get to work, and get them good vibes moving for more Zzzs for you!

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