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My minds high ceilings

I want to describe how I feel inside.
And I want to try to explain existing in the workplace of my mind.
The closest comparison that I can find is, it’s like sitting at a table in a restaurant of marvelous architectural design.
With exaggerated high ceilings.
Where one individual’s voice gets lost, and is impossible to find.
Traveling thoughts made of loud notes, that find their seats.
Watching the show they star in ,as pieces of me, collectively.
No breaks. Unpaid understudy.
The role I am to take.
If I don’t find a way out of this place.
No pause for the moon or sun to take.
The clinking of the dishes in the background.
Glass hitting the ground.
The waiters frequently coming around.
The people coming in and out.
Conversations closing me in, going on and about.
It’s a symphony of loud vibrating mouths.
The only silence that can be found, is within the space between you and the ground.
Not between my two temples, where a home for my mind is bound.
It thrives in these kinds of environments.
Because it utilizes the noise, to muffle my cries to escape its vindictiveness.
While it continues to berate my human condition, it helped create.
The ego and critic are also part of their team.
Loud places are playgrounds for the curses we just throw around, carelessly. Unknowingly.
I’ve casted so many spells out
under tall ceilings.
Just by thoughtlessly speaking aloud.
Escapees.
Words I thought encouraged others and me.
Have secrets hidden between the lettering.
BeLIEve, Believe, is to accept something as true.
This word has casted many spells.
And right in front of, and over me and you.
There is always a gathering of these negatives in this space.
My minds workplace has no pause.
Just a big red switch.
Labeled, Last date.
I guess that’s the best description of my minds workplace, that I can paint.

Sierra Mazzucca

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3 responses to “My minds high ceilings”

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    Christopher Hall

    I’m telling ya, this one is insane! After I heard it live, I was speechless with euphoric jaw dropping awe if you remember. LOL. You always somehow manage to keep consistently leveling up with your talent. Like, the imagery you used here to get your point across was so fucking brilliant. I also loved hearing more about the real life inspirational context behind the piece live as well. You couldn’t have picked a more perfect idea and concept to vividly portray this paradoxical quiet chaos that’s happening underneath the surface within your mind here. From start to finish it’s almost like you invited us into your space, and you were like hey, let me show you around! It’s phenomenal! I always struggle with pointing out specific lines because I enjoy every single line, and how each of them connect and fit within the grander narrative structure. And thus, isolating or compartmentalizing some lines over others (depending upon the context) can sometimes have the effect of taking away both the overall esoteric and exoteric context within the poem if the person giving the commentary doesn’t explain it correctly.

    “Loud places are playgrounds for the curses we just throw around, carelessly. Unknowingly. I’ve casted so many spells out under tall ceilings. Just by thoughtlessly speaking aloud. Escapees. Words I thought encouraged others and me. Have secrets hidden between the lettering. BeLIEve, Believe, is to accept something as true. This word has casted many spells. And right in front of, and over me and you.”
    – I loved how you used this wordplay with “BeLIEve” for the contextual illustration within this piece, showcasing it as having a hidden sneaky double meaning inside of it that you once never recognized in your mind’s awareness up until now. Casting a spell that you thought was a blessing, only to recognize the hidden subliminal curse essentially within it. Because that connects back to the earlier lines as you said, “Loud places are playgrounds for the curses we just throw around, carelessly. Unknowingly.” And I literally could go on and on continuing the commentary as this entire section right up to the finish was a masterpiece.

    I love the connection that I feel from your soul each time you write. It always reminds me again that I’ve known you forever throughout all our lifetimes. And it’s something that I continue to forever cherish and be truly grateful for. I always want to come back and make sure I show you with my action how much I’m grateful to know you, and that God is good for allowing me to connect back with you again in this lifetime within this vast universe. You are an absolute treasure within this world, and I hope to break your heart with happier tears each time I have an encounter with your spirit, reminding you are still perfect in the soul within this broken body, and broken world that we are encased in. It’s always a joy for me to write these commentaries. Thank you for truly showing up for us. I selfishly never want you to stop writing no matter how the contrast of light or dark tries to sway your soul. ❤️🙏🏻

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    1. Sierra Mazzucca Avatar
      Sierra Mazzucca

      Omg, you are the best! Thank you, and for always showing up. I am so blessed for your support, kindness, and prayers. I know you are going through your own stuff, but you still show up for others. Says so much about your character.

      I appreciate you always pointing out the lines that stuck with you most. This was the best way I could describe chaos beneath the beauty. In a way people could feel it. I hope every reader can feel as though I captured that. And if they feel the same, well they are not alone!!

      I hope you continue to share your healing journey and pieces with us here , open mic and everywhere. We are all grateful you are here.

      Finding one another each time.
      May the accident will, in every lifetime. 🙏🏼

      Hope you have an amazing day.
      Thank you for always showing up here, even after you heard it live. Your support and generous kindness do not go unseen. ✨️

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      1. Christopher Hall Avatar
        Christopher Hall

        It is absolutely my pleasure! I truly thank you and I’m most grateful for your kind words! I also remembered that I forgot to mention how fucking sick that instrumental was in this piece! Definitely won’t forget that one! 👍🏻

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