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A collection of poems

I know I am not unique when it comes to pain, stress or every day anxieties.
I understand all beings deal with life and its uncertainties. when it comes to planning or everything going accordingly.
All living things feel they are the center of the universe.
Like no other being has felt pain or constant feelings of uncertainty.
Thankfully, nature has graciously organized the principle of memory and forgettery.
Alan says if you remembered everything you’d be like a piece of paper that has been written on, over and over again excessively.
Until you are unable to distinguish between one thing, this, that or anything.
Memories are scribbles on a mental board, where nature kindly steps in and erases what we knew before.
Just to start over again as something different.
And, it doesn’t matter what you come back as. It will all feel the same.
Because you will have nothing to recall when you come back, no comparisons can be made.
As there will be no memories from past life forms lived.
Which means we all start at the same place. A middle where memories are stolen that were once made.
And the biggest lie humans are delusional enough to believe, is that we have time to plan ahead. But time was never ours to reserve or keep. What gave us the right to hold moments hostage calling it time, just to fit our needs. For placement within the experience of life. The idea is we reproduce artistically, biologically, and technically. We need to believe there is something bigger controlling everything, and that’s just in order for me to be able to be me. The moral could be argued that you are always in the same place, the middle of everything. No matter the species, nature has the last say. We are the middle everywhere, every time we are invited back to this place. Yet still there are no words that can exactly capture the experience of existing, that one could say. I just know I am not unique as I once believed. And everything is a mere reflection of me.

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2 responses to “The fantasy of being”

  1. Christopher Hall Avatar

    I loved how I could instantly feel the structure transition from a more poetic, to a speech kind of form right in the middle of the piece. At least that’s what I felt from my perspective. That is actually really sick! Good freaking job! I absolutely felt the vibe in my core from start to finish. Your voice, and instrumental did a solid job of keeping the tone calm in the piece too.

    I have been blessed here to be able to relate and share this present spiritual journey with you. Because I am not kidding, probably just within the span of three months ago, I would’ve been like, “Huh,” towards everything you touched on here. But right now, ever since these months have passed, I now get it. So another words, I’m a rookie at this. I’m still just in the acceptance, and practice stages of this stuff. Honestly, it’s the hardest thing I’ve ever done. No joke, I’ve literally had to go get accountability over the weekend with this like I’m battling an addiction, just so I could get extra help with helping overcome all of these previously held beliefs, and negative feedback loops.

    That last sentence in particular, “Everything is a mere reflection of me,” has been the hardest, along with being stuck in the past too. It’s hard to get into practice the concept of there really being no past, nor future. And that everything is truly present right now in the middle for always, as you touched on here. And the whole reflection thing has been the most challenging because, now it’s forcing me to completely stop pointing blame on external things. It’s so damn hard. But, it’s supposed to be, I know Sierra, I get it. We’re supposed to have limitations to overcome, but I hate the feeling right now, because I am not used to it. It still fucking sucks and eventually It will become second nature, and I’ll get over it damnit! Lol!

    I enjoy your presence, and I thank you for being so sweet, kind, and gentle with this beating heart of mine. While also balancing that out with having fun, joking around, and talking some shit during the last open mic too! That’s another cool memory! I love it all! I’m very pleased to see you have continued to grow even more as of late! The sky isn’t just limit, there are no limits for us! Keep on moving! 🙏🏻

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    1. Sierra Avatar
      Sierra

      As always your words and feedback are the best part of posting some days. Like when you just want to know was it understandable. Did I write it chaotic or was there a point to the madness. So I appreciate when you come here and let me know. Thank you. I know its hatd, hell half the time I have to act as though, until it is so.

      Thank you for being here. For healing yourself for yourself and no one else. You are love and you are worthy. Keep shinning like the rays that lay on top of the ocean on a bright sunny day.

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