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Stay in your place

Seriously.
Why won’t you leave permanently?
You have never made me feel strong like I can do anything.
You only ever wanted me down and blue.
I tried to change you.
I did stuff that could heal you.
But you are so intent, on making me feel see-through.
I went to the man with a degree to silence your mockery.
He prescribed a pill that would rid you from me.

I was so hopeful, that I believed you would actually leave.
But no matter the name of the pill he prescribed, you wouldn’t go away.
You were attached me.
The pills made you laugh, but you were very mad at the fact I was trying to detach you from me.
I decided if the scripts won’t work, then I have to fight you.
ME to Me.
To reclaim my peace.
That you just won’t allow me to keep.

Since I was a child all you did was control me.
Tell me untrue things to get a tighter hold on me.
Tell me everything bad, to feel alone and lonely.
But you are a liar, and I no longer believe.
You have done damage, I am now repairing.
You are vile and scary.
Don’t think I forgot all the times, you persuaded me I was better off disappearing.
I was only a child when you said life is better without me.

As you controlled my head with the lies you pushed me to believe.
But I am grown now, and I have tools to protect me.
You can visit, but I made an exit for you to leave.
Go left.
I’m not asking. I’m telling.
I’m tired of being scared of what you have in store next for me.

I am a human with feelings.
And I deserve to be free, and happy.
I will not allow you to control, continue to defile my spirit, mind and body.
You may be part of me currently.
But you will never have all of me, not permanently.
Stay in your place, before I find a pill to make you defenseless, and happy for the rest of me.

Sierra Mazzucca

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4 responses to “Stay in your place”

  1. Christopher Hall Avatar
    Christopher Hall

    Ah! I see someone has just won a war. Glad to see they are in their place now. Chaos is hard to dominate, but it is mostly certainly tamable. You just gotta have the belief like what you’ve found. Or well, an even more deeper truth is that you’ve always had it from the beginning actually. Now you’ve just reclaimed it. That’s all. You win! It loses. Now it’s your bitch! LOL!

    I don’t think you’ve could ended day 30 better than how you just did. Congrats on making it all the way through this challenge! What you have done here is on a level that I don’t know how anybody else could handle! You have that same quality of stubbornness that I have. And you’re teaching me how to make good use of that skill. I’m most certainly going to take that lesson with me.

    As for the more in depth technicalities of the writing itself, the flow of this was a wonderful masterpiece. I loved the rhyming structure, and the intentional or unintentional repetition in flow that I felt throughout.

    “You can visit, but I made an exit for you to leave. Go left. I’m not asking. I’m telling. I’m tired of being scared of what you have in store next for me.” – That was a very sick line! I loved the anger, and the flame of certainty within it.

    “Seriously. Why won’t you leave permanently? You have never made me feel strong like I can do anything. You only ever wanted me down and blue. I tried to change you. I did stuff that could heal you. But you are so intent, on making me feel see-through. I went to the man with a degree to silence your mockery. He prescribed a pill that would rid you from me.” – I can decisively say that this whole first verse felt like a song in and of itself to me. Like the rhythm in it is just appetizing to my personal senses. Everyone is different of course. But just for me personally, this had me hooked from the start. And now I come back and see, that this is definitely my favorite part.

    Banger instrumental beat along with it too! Not a surprise! Go celebrate, and treat yourself with something special for accomplishing this feat! You should’ve absolutely lost your mind from the pain and agony during all of this, and yet you stayed sane. Thank you for inspiring me and feeding me the strength in my heart to have that same belief and stubborn tenacity that you carry. I have a lot to reflect on for myself personally after watching you endure this experience. It was my absolute honor to witness this and be here for it. I’ll never forget it! Thank you!!! 👏🏻🙏🏻💗

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    1. Sierra Mazzucca Avatar
      Sierra Mazzucca

      You truly know the words people need to hear. Thank you for always being here and for sticking it out with me through this, and for all your prayers. You are a comforting hug. Thank you for giving me your honest feedback.its refreshing. I am So happy I can inspire you, that is a gift all in itself. So thank you.

      They say treasure doesnt have to be shiny, well your words are treasure ✨️ so grateful.

      I love to make these beats. I am happy you like them 😊

      Hope your day has been well so far 😊🙏🏼🩶

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  2. Willie Glasper Avatar
    Willie Glasper

    wow, that was really good. your words hove many Emotions Behind them.

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    1. Sierra Mazzucca Avatar
      Sierra Mazzucca

      Thank you so much 💓
      Yes so many emotions 😢
      I appreciate you taking the time to comment.

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