I miss you every day.
That has not changed.
I just learned to love you in a different kind of way.
Honestly I don’t think the pain of losing you will ever lessen.
I thought we had time to mend things but that is my own life lesson.
I prayed we’d have one another in old age.
But, your death has taught me I in fact do not have any future for certain to claim.
Loving you now means an open wound I will forever sustain. Because closing it means losing you.
Your memory.
Your style.
Your laugh.
The way you cared even when you yourself felt bad.
I miss the moments we won’t get to have.
And I dislike that I don’t know for certain what happens after this.
But I do know one thing, I will one day find you, wherever after is.
Missing you is just part of this living biz.
Our souls are forever connected even though we are physically separate.
I feel closer to you when I lay under the sun.
Still not the same as when your form was human.
But it’s the hope that I will always find you, wherever I am.
Whenever I end, I hope our energy is the first one to link back again.
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