The body keeps the score.
I understand that statement more and more.
All the self beatings I endured, but never said a word.
My body was keeping the score.
I was keeping tally of the bruises, and wounds I tried to hide.
This score was gathered from the trauma in my body, which I supplied.
I never thought it would come back and haunt me.
to steal my dreams and replace them with sleepless nights.
The body is weak, and spirit everlasting.
So I have to tend to the pain, I usually brush off.
Because I believe my body will eventually send out the Trojan horse.
To attack my body, in the name of pain keeping a high score.
Meditate and pray.
Eat healthy, drink water.
The sleepless nights from the pain, will eventually go away.
And remember because of the self work and progress you’ve made, deep wounds will resurface not to torture you.
But to finally receive aid.
It is best to not forget the body holds the score.
So don’t think you got away from pain, just because it didn’t come right away.
It will wait until you forget.
Till one day you awake, and you cant breathe or move comfortably.
You learn pain is patient, and ornery.
So when you try to resolve it, it will fight for the space it thinks it ought to be.
Just for today, Phantom pain is the only anguish from my body that I will receive.
The body keeps the score.
But I wont let it get beaten down, like I have done many times before.
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