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None of it matters.Not in a morbid way.But we are all performers in the existence of the human play. We come and go.Like stars, there is no permanency.Still even knowing this we choose to limit our visions.We stray from spontaneity to embrace rigid rules someone wrote in invisible ink. We are born with playful souls.We…
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Inhale peace. Hold. Exhale pain. Repeat. That’s been my mantra recently. The way my body was treating me, it was so unhappy with me. Almost like I with my own hands was scrambling my nerve endings. Because no one could help me. They said it was only me who could stop the pain. No medication…
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Sleep,why have you yet to find me? I sent you numerous messages. But you still haven’t replied back to me. Left on read. Even so, I am where we usually meet. My body lies flat on top of clean sheets, with eyes shut, waiting patiently. It’s been weeks since we spoke. Have you too lost…
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I ask to be Free. From a prisoner of me. Free from being stuck in a mental loop of looking for spiritual peace. All within the most chaotic parts in me. That I work hard to keep unseen. Usually I’d hide behind your masks, but they no longer fit me. Beauty is quickly fading, the…
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I’m done asking what’s wrong with me. Or why is this happening. I’m exasperated by your lack of responses. Clearly you don’t care enough to answer me. Well not with spoken words, shall we play Pictionary? Are you even listening? I repent everything. Stop this weak body’s suffering. Punishment has been given. And is still…
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It’s me, the villain of my psyche. I am the person who’s hurting me. And I keep on looking for someone to give me answers, like it’s some new discovery. Like I’m unique. Like your tests can’t see what I see. But I am the villain. It is me. I’m the one turning against me.…
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The body keeps the score. I understand that statement more and more. All the self beatings I endured, but never said a word. My body was keeping the score. I was keeping tally of the bruises, and wounds I tried to hide. This score was gathered from the trauma in my body, which I supplied.…
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Pain is physical suffering or discomfort caused by injury. Currently every nerve in my body is firing off aggressively. I can barely keep my thoughts functioning. I keep trying to find peace for this pain ridden body. But something greater appears to enjoy watching me. Listening to me cry. Squirm in discomfort for nearly a…
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When my anxiety goes into override, I’ve been known to zone out and misplace time. Like I fall into a vortex somewhere in my mind. I couldn’t even draw a map to this place, for you to find. I appear there, and I feel like I am floating on cloud 9. Weightless, painless. Yet my…
